normal-ish



It feels so nice to be feeling nice enough for outfit posts again! I was diagnosed with the same infection that I had over the holidays, and the recovery process took a lot longer this time. But I caught it quicker since I recognized the symptoms, and I finally went to see a specialist. And she put me on a longer antibiotic regiment to hopefully make sure it doesn't come back a third time. But apparently your chance of recurrence jumps from about 20% to 60% once you've already contracted the infection two times. Yikes!

My treatment just ended three days ago, and it was good timing because my trip to California is tomorrow! I booked this trip back in August of last year, and I had NO idea at the time how much it would end up meaning to me during my two bouts of illness. The idea of sunny California, reuniting with my friends, and getting to visit the happiest place on earth, really got me through a lot of tough nights and gave me a light to look forward to at the end of the tunnel.

I'm still not feeling 100% yet, and in person I think my face has a very "on death's door" pallor to it, but I've made so much progress and I'm able to eat most of my favorite foods again (still holding off on beans and broccoli but I think I'll try them when I get back from my trip!) I've been going for walks with my dad every day, and my fitbit stats moved from "poor" to "fair" heart health -- which is the right direction at least! I'm feeling optimistic and happy...  and honestly THRILLED that I'm not just wearing pajamas every day anymore, lol!



The Holy Grail of Eyeliners



Hey! Long time no see! I'm planning on doing a little catch-up post to let you know what's been going on but first, I had to do this eyeliner post! You NEED to know about this eyeliner. Trust me.

A couple weeks ago I shared an experiment I was conducting on my IG stories. I was testing out a new eyeliner, and its staying power was INSANE. I slept with it on for four days in a row before it started to smudge/flake off. I'll admit it's not the best ocular hygiene ~but~ every single eyeliner I have ever tried has smudged or flaked before I even got in bed the day it was applied. The idea that one could last this long was insane.



I've been a liquid eyeliner junkie since I was in high school. One of my first blog posts here was an ode to eyeliner. My eye shadow/mascara routine might change through the years, but I've never wavered from my thick, winged eyeliner. It's been a struggle though because my eyes are watery, and my eyelids can be oily, so eyeliner always inevitably either disappears in my inner corner, transfers to my upper lid, or just slowly flakes off during the day. I've tried dozens of eyeliners over the years, but nothing was really good enough. These are just the ones that were still kicking around in my makeup drawer today:



Out of these, the only ones I liked were the Stila Stay All Day liner and the NYX Matte Liquid Liner. But the Stila one doesn't produce a very dark black, it has a felt-tip marker applicator which isn't precise enough for me, and it pretty much disappears off of my lid during the day. The NYX one is darker and I like the brush applicator, but it's too wet and usually runs in my inner corner and transfers to my eyelid during the day. And in balmy weather it always slides around and makes me look like I smeared black all over my eyelid. And those are the good ones, lol. They've sufficed, but I was constantly searching for something better.

Enter: MAC Liquidlast Liner

OH. MY. GOD.

First of all, the black is MATTE BLACK. Not a weak watery black, not a shiny vinyl looking black, MATTE BLACK. And it stays matte all day. The brush is a precise brush, not a felt marker. It's so easy to apply a perfect wing! But even if you don't like the brush, you can use your own brush to apply it since it's a bottle with a brush, not a marker with the ink sealed up inside. It does not budge. Even with super watery eyes, it stays put as soon as I apply it -- I can even tightline my upper lid with it and it doesn't bleed!

I've worn it in hot weather, I've worn it when I was crying my eyes out, I've worn it to sleep for three consecutive nights, and I am in total disbelief at its staying power. It goes without saying (like I'd actually be sponsored by MAC? lol) but this is totally not sponsored. I'm just SO obsessed with this eyeliner and I want to sing its praises from the rooftops. I want everyone who's had the same issues as me to be able to stop searching. Personally I bought three bottles of the stuff after I tried it, just preparing in case it ever gets discontinued.

Also, despite how well this stuff adheres itself to your eyelid, it *is* actually easy to remove with makeup remover. I use Cetaphil gentle makeup removing wipes, and it comes off pretty easily! So it's really the best of both worlds. You can fall asleep with it on when you're lazy and wake up ready to go, or you can responsibly wipe it away at night without much tugging on the lid. Win-win!

Also, kind of off subject, but every time I've ever done a makeup-related post on this blog I've struggled so much to get a photo of my eye that doesn't look weird. I have such respect for makeup instagrammers.

neverending story



I took photos of this outfit last week and right now I'm sitting in pajamas that I've been wearing for two days, no makeup, sick again. ARGHHHHH! *shakes fist at the universe* I was so happy to be feeling back to normal and like myself again, and I have been the biggest germaphobe, washing my hands like 100x a day, but I guess my immune system just wasn't running at full capacity yet after my whole ordeal over the holidays.

I was doing so good with outfit posts and videos, too!! But it's the one thing I just can't muster up the energy to do when I'm sick. I'm totally capable of getting work done but when I'm sick I am *not* getting dressed and putting makeup on, lol! I have to go to the doctor and I think sweatpants and maaaaaaybe a quick swipe of eyeliner is going to be the best I can do today. Hopefully I'll be taking outfit photos and posting new videos really soon! I mean, I even bought myself a ring light, I need to get better asap so I can start using it!


shoes - bait footwear | wig - keke wigs

five years with Arrietty!



This little gal has been a member of the family for five years today!

I was sitting here trying to put into words how much she means to me, trying to describe to you why she's such a special kitty, when I heard her meowing in the hallway, her meows getting closer and closer to my door. She walked in, still meowing, with a little rubber ball in her mouth, and then she dropped it at my feet. It's one of many Arrietty quirks that make living with her so much fun!

She's just such a little sweetheart. She loves snuggling with me and sleeps cuddled up next to me every night. I even have a bench instead of a chair at my desk because she was so distraught that she couldn't sit right next to me while I work! She waits for me outside the bathroom door and likes to hop on my lap to keep me company when I eat lunch. She's always by my side whenever I'm home, and so deliriously happy to see me when I get back from outings (even if I've only been out for a few hours!) She likes to lick my hands and my nose, so much so that my family calls me "Arrietty's lollipop" lol! She's just so affectionate and sweet and the most un-aloof cat I've ever known in my life.

She likes to sit on my arm when I'm at my computer so I'll stop working and pay attention to her instead. She loves laying on her back in the sunshine by the back door, watching squirrels and soaking up the sun. I love how often she lays on her back, because it shows how much she trusts us. And she does it ALL the time! If she's sitting at my feet and I bend my knee, she stands up and stretches on my knee like a little trained puppy. It's adorable!

I just feel so lucky to have her, and I'm so happy that I decided to adopt her during a particularly sad moment in my life. It was 100% one of the best decisions I've ever made. She makes every single day sunnier, funnier, happier, sweeter. She makes me smile even when I'm terribly blue or sick or stressed, and her little kitty hugs are the best part of every day!

You can read my post from when I first adopted her right here. And her first cameo in an outfit post is right here. :)

tees and thank you



Guess what! I designed this t-shirt! :D

I started adding some t-shirt designs to my shop late last month, and I'm so happy with the selection so far! They are women's t-shirts in sizes small through 2XL, and so far I have 15 different designs available. I've been designing the placement of the prints so that they'll work well tucked into skirts, as well as worn untucked over pants. I feel like whenever I buy t-shirts the designs are so long that the bottom disappears if I tuck it in, so I wanted to make sure that wouldn't be an issue with these.

The video below shows my first 11 designs, but I also added four more this week, including a fun St. Patrick's Day shirt for introverts. You can find all of the shirts in my shop here.






shirt - my shop | cardigan - vintage | belt - old
skirt - urban outfitters | shoes - bait footwear | wig - keke wigs

wishful spring-ing



It seemed very spring-y yesterday so I went with a very spring-y outfit to match! Although I guess all of my outfits look at least slightly spring-y anyway since I still wear colorful outfits in the winter? Anyway, it felt fresh, bright, and floral.

If you've been following me for a while you know that I've flirted with going back to school like twenty times already, and I was at it again this week. I had considered going to school for visual merchandising when I was a teenager (basically I just really wanted to design store windows and in-store displays) and I came back to that idea recently. I was looking at a program in NYC and you need your high school transcripts, SAT results, and a letter from a teacher or advisor to apply. And I left high school in 2003. I don't think I realized before how difficult it must be for older students to return to college until now. It would be a nightmare getting my high school records, let alone for students who are in their 50's or 60's! I feel like there should be some alternate application process for returning students.

I don't think I'm determined enough to embark on an "unearthing Kate's records from 15 years ago!" expedition, so I'll probably pass on the application. I just think I'd be really good at window design. It's a weird thing to have as a calling, but I think I have a knack for it. Maybe I just related a little too much to Rhoda from Mary Tyler Moore as a kid, lol!

It's so weird to be 31 and still like "hmm.. what should I be when I grow up?" but that is definitely my life. I hope some of you guys out there feel the same way and maybe can relate a bit. I know personally it seems like everybody I know, even people way younger than me, totally have it together already, while I'm still trying to figure everything out.




dress - c/o sheinside (super old) | blouse - vintage from soft future
shoes - bait footwear | wig - keke wigs

le tote et moi



A couple weeks ago I saw an ad on Facebook for this subscription service called Le Tote where you get 4 clothing items that you rent, wear them as much as you want, then send them back for 4 different items. It was marketed as a solution to the problem of buying a ton of clothes that you never wear and saving money each month on clothes. I thought I'd give it a whirl for a month, and when the first box arrived I decided to do a little unboxing video!



After I was done filming (eek!) I tried everything on. The yellow dress was way too big and the Yumi dress was too snug on the hips (sad face!!) The mint green one fit well and it looked pretty cute. I LOVE the blue sweater (I'm wearing it in the photo above) and when I sent back my tote I decided to keep it.

I already paid for a whole month of the service so I'm going to order stuff, see if I like it, possibly wear it, and send it back as many times as possible before the month is up, and then I'll cancel. The selection isn't very extensive so it's harder for me to find enough stuff to fill up multiple boxes. Most of the clothes are very neutral, business-casual, and traditional. In other words, not really my style. I think if there was a fun Modcloth/ASOS/Unique Vintage version of this box I would be ALL IN. But for someone who doesn't really find much to love in most regular retail shops, the pickings in Le Tote are slim. I picked out four more items for the tote that's in the mail on its way to me now, but honestly unless they add more between now and the next time I'd be ordering another tote, there wasn't really anything left on the site that I'd want to try out.

Aside from the selection though, I do think this is a good idea and I'm glad I gave it a try. The package came in the mail really fast, and they send your new tote once the return is scanned in at the post office... they don't even wait until they receive it. So the time between totes is minimal.

My only real complaints are the selection (which shouldn't be an issue if you like the style they offer!) and that you can't view their catalog until you sign up for a paid account. Honestly my curiosity got the best of me and I paid the monthly fee before I even saw what they had to offer. If I had seen it first I definitely wouldn't have signed up.

I guess the real moral of the story here is that I'm horribly susceptible to facebook advertisements.


sweater - cece | pink pants - asos | shoes - bait footwear | wig - keke wigs

purple hearts



I feel like I've *mostly* mastered the controls on my DSLR so I can take semi-good quality photos even when the lighting is really crummy. It's a dreary rainy mess here right now (it's supposed to keep raining yesterday through Sunday!) but I don't think you can tell in the photo! Yay! I can't quite say the same about my handiness with recording video lol. It might partially be because I edit video in imovie whereas the photos are edited in Photoshop, but the lighting in my videos leaves a lot to be desired. I don't know if anyone is actually even watching them but if anyone out there is, I promise I'm working on improving the quality! :)

I actually recorded a video yesterday where I *speak* and it's so awkward lol. (And the lighting is even worse than the one below since I was in an even darker area of my house!) I'll be posting it on Monday I think, but I'm just going to put it out there and never rewatch it. I was so insanely nervous. It's not actually my voice that I'm self conscious about, I just make such exaggerated faces while I'm talking and I never realize I'm doing it until I see myself on video lol! Now that I pointed it out it's probably going to stand out even more if you watch it so I should just stop talking ;p I think it's just one of those things where we mention our own flaws because we want to beat someone else to it, you know? Anyway, here's a video where I'm blissfully silent and hugging cute little Arrietty:




dress - modcloth (old) | cardigan - amazon | tights - amazon